In light of recent (horrid) events I've decided I need to step back and really look at some things. I guess I should take this time to evaluate some stuff. I realize obviously I'm not someone worth being with. Okay. Maybe I should take this time to change that. I think one of my biggest faults is that I don't value myself as a person. Seems kinda selfish I know. But it's true. I think that's my biggest issue. I don't take care of myself because I don't think very highly of myself. It's been rough trying to adjust and honestly the effort has gone no where. I've struggled a bit with trying not to get back into some of my old habits. Some I've managed to avoid, others, not so much. I need to change that. I need to become a better person so that someday maybe I can be a person worth coming back to.

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